All I Have is ....

.........................I really don't know what
...................................to write about what
................................I feel,
.......................especially today!
........................Wish you were here.
.......................I won't touch or hold or
............................talk to you,
........................I'd just be with you,
..........................and smile, and write,
.................................and cry.

........................Then maybe you would offer
..................................your hand, and
..................................................be the seedling
............................of our minute understanding

..................................Words can't really shout....

Birthday Billowing

You talked to me by the mossy steps,
we were sitting on the stairs, laughing
.......softly at ourselves, then silencing.
I am tongue- tied, I say to you
and you smiled in loving response,
while we huddled up in our secret garden.

You closed your gentle eyes as I recited warmly:

..................No words can shout

....................... No words realy can
............................explain, in detail and
..............................color, my fraught deepening for
....................................you.
....................Like you'd care anyway...

.................I love you.
.................Happy Birthday.
.................I know you'll get it all
..............................the best.
................I'll even give the best
............ of your wanting, frame or such...